A Hard Day

Yesterday, was a challenging day emotionally. I didn't feel inspired to write, nor did I want to affect your mood through my negativity. I suppose that's how I process negative emotions, I just disconnect from the outer world and go within. And in that I find comfort, that I can nest within myself and self-soothe. I think it's powerful when you can seek comfort and reassurance within yourself. But it's also powerful to lean on other human beings and be seen. Emotions just want to be acknowledge but I have learned to find a balance between leaning on friends and leaning on myself. It all depends on the day, mood, situation. It's delicate dance really.

Yesterday, I slept pretty late and it was a cloudy misty day all day, as today. So it's not ideal photography weather. But to experience this mist is quite, well, mystical. I love the different weather conditions you can experience on this island. How it's ever changing and shifting in every micro moment. This island just feels so alive because of it's connection to the sea. I woke up today and came across a Nordic shamanic song on YouTube all about water. And it made me think how powerful water is for cleansing, healing, and nurturing all living things on this planet. Can you imagine no water on this planet? It's a scary thought. Something that we take for granted is vital to our existence.

Anyway, just some morning thoughts as I now write my to do list for the day. I always find having a to-do list centers me for the day and helps me focus on what is most important in the present moment. It's easy to get overwhelmed by a long list. And now that I have moved to Sweden, there is a lot of administrative things to take care of like organising car insurance, my european health card, getting a Swedish phone number, following up with the tax authorities to ensure I'm registered as a resident of Sweden, and much more! It's fun but boring at the same time haha I just want the sun to burst through the clouds and the mist to disappear so I can run on the rocks and capture all the beauty that is here with my camera and drone. That time will come, and when it does, I will be ready.

I think today will be mostly spent at my computer and on the phone taking care of business, and doing some things around the house: laundry and cleaning. As much as it's misty outside and not exactly photography weather, I will definitely go outside and be one with the magic of nature. There is something magical about this island and something mysterious about the mist. I like to go into it for some reason. When I was a child my Dad would tell me that it's spirits. We would drive in the dark and see the mist in the headlights. As a child I would think "Oh no, aren't we hurting the spirits driving into them?" How wonderful the world is through the child's eyes. I never want to lose that childlike wonder.

This island feels like a different dimension when I drive across the bridge. Almost like the Bifrost bridge haha Anyway, I hope you have a wonderful and child-like wondering day. I will take some pictures and film a little bit here and there today.

Speak soon ♥︎